Trip to Manila na Mag-Isa - namimiss si Carlo

  Last Wednesday, mag-isa akong nag-travel sakay ng bus papunta over here in Maynila. Excited ako na makarating over here because of the iBlog3 and at the same time ang aking On-The-Job training sa isang company na I won't mention where kasi someone might stalk me LOL.

Sumakay ako in the bus at 3- ng madaling araw. Birthday ng kapatid kong si Carlo noong gabi so I slept beside him muna. Napaisip ako "How long ba ako hindi mag-hug o mag-kiss sayo? Kakayanin ko kaya ang loneliness at pagkasabik sa aking brother?" Pero naisip ko din na kinakailangan ko rin itong gawin for our future.. you know…

Pinipilit ko to sleep that night but I can't. So many stuff iniisip ko - how will i survive, how to budget money, my clothes, my meals and my boys (charing! ). Result? Hindi ako nakatulog. I stared at my brother the whole night. Dapat 5am pa ako aalis pero hindi talaga ako makatulog kaya ginising ko si grandpa and nagpahatid ako sa bus station. I knew he wanted to cry because I'm leaving for a while, yet nararamdaman ko na masaya siya kasi sa wakas he'd see his grandchild in her full independence ika nga. Alam ko naman proud siya sa akin eh hehe

Noong nasa bus ako, I can't help but recall the days when Carlo and I are lumuluwas in Metro Manila. Palipat-lipat siya ng upuan na feeling nya siya may-ari ng bus. He's smiling as if it's always his first time to commute and ride the bus. Nakakatuwa siya. He's so cute! I love hugging him during trips and spoiled siya kay Ate. Minsan nga naaasar ako kapag may stopver in Dau, Pampanga kasi ang daming paninda and wer keep on buying all these hotdogs at kung ano pa man..

Nakarating ako dito sa Maynila by 7:30AM and at San Juan by 8:00AM. I was eating a lot when lola called up. Ate Virgie told me that Carlo looked for me when he woke up and he's been calling out my name the whole morning. Nung tumawag ako nung gabi, he refused to talk to me. He pushes them when they're trying to get him sa telepono para kausapin ako. Nagtatampo kaya siya dahil siya ay aking panandaliang iniwan? Masama ba para sa kanya na siya ay naiwan doon?

Kanina sa iBlog3, may lumapit sa akin na bata. Remembered him once again - his smile, his charm and his cute face! Kanina sa summit tinignan ko yung DigiCam ko and browsed through our pics.. He's a big boy now and by next year.. 13 na siya! He's gonna be a man soon.

I was planning to share something about iblog3 but i ended up writing another entry about Carlo. I guess I just miss him so much..

(Tried to use taglish sa post na ito. Ok ba? :p)