A Sister’s Failure - Was it?

When my grandfather decided to sign up and have an internet connection at home, I was the happiest person in the world that night. I literally surfed the whole night until 3AM surfing around Money Making Websites and posted much on myLOT, an English forum where you can earn money from starting discussions and replying to other topics.

 do admit that I joined myLot because of the money. I wanted to increase my earnings overnight yet I only earned $.70 on my first night as a member. I almost thought of not pursuing with it, yet I found some entries that got my attention.

In myLot, you have to list down your interest to get more people reply to the topics you’ve started. I added “autism” in my list of interests yet I was able to find some parents of autism kids and they regularly post some updates regarding the condition. I found out that April is considered as Autism Awareness Month.

Back in 2004, I had this urge of putting up a blog about autism yet I never had the time to do so. What I did is I just blogged about my brother and I think he’s one of the reasons why the readers of Micamyx-Dagupena Dreamer keeps on coming back – they wanted to know more on my journey as a sister to a hyper yet lovable autistic brother named Carlo.

I originally planned of launching Loving Carlo last April 11, 2007, Carlo’s 12^th Birthday. I had some articles from my previous livejournal blog copied and to be reposted there so that the people from the blogosphere will have a background on how autism changed my life.

That night, I,PH is sick (regular check-up mode) and I really hate it! It happened to me three times already. How would you feel when you were typing a long, long dramatic entry in the Create Post window and you pushed the publish button and after 10 minutes nothing happened? I admit that I was really pissed that night. I could have launched and updated my thoughts that night. I even rented at a computer shop that night. Since then I became busy with a lot of stuff and now I am here in Manila trying my luck as an intern somewhere in Ortigas and I have no internet connection at the condo. This thing saddens me. I felt like I failed in my mission and that is to promote autism awareness. I guess I have to thank my friends for all the encouragement you’ve been giving me. I would like to apologize for not maintaining Carlo’s blog the way I originally planned to. I am actually missing him so much. He doesn’t want to talk to me on the phone. Is he mad at me? I dunno. Maybe he’s missing me too yet he can’t express his true feelings. Being away from Carlo even just for a matter of days is a big adjustment for me.