The 5-hour Bus Trip : Boys, Girls and Love

The picture above signifies my being a member of the NBSB group. Nasisignify nga ba? LOL

It’s 8:30am and I just arrived here in my grannies’ condo unit. I am now here in my bed – tired, sleepy and somewhat bored.

The 5-hour trip from Dagupan to Manila was a learning experience. I didn’t even take a nap in the whole trip because of the lovers staying at the back of my seat. They were kissing and cuddling like a married couple. To be honest, I was a bit irritated. But why am I irritated? Is it because of the fact that a bus is a public place,  therefore, no one should cuddle nor kiss like they’re in a private room (they couldv’t stayed in a private place like i have a list of good cheap hotels here), or is it because I haven’t found that special someone?

I never denied the fact that I am indeed a member of the NBSB (No Boyfriend Since Birth) group. I am now twenty years old going twenty one on Tuesday. I find it funny that a lot of people refuse to believe my claim. Is it with the way I wear my clothes? The way I speak? I dunno and I don’t care anyway.

I remember my bus ride last April 15. I was on my way back to Dagupan when I saw a former school mate. He was actually the President of one of the student organization when I was still in first year college. He was with his girlfriend and he asked me the common question of my long lost friends:

              "May boyfriend ka na ba?"

              "Wala pa" I answered back.

              "Alam mo, bilib ako sayo. Tinotoo mo nga yung sinabi mo, pero wala ka bang naging prospect man lang?"

To be honest, I think I fell in love when I was in college.

We never had a relationship though, but I consider the moments I spent with him as something that is really unforgettable. I don’t even know the real reason why we ended up not talking with each other after all the happy moments. He just graduated last month and I don’t even have an idea where he is now. Should I even bother? Is he bothered? Whatever.

I am not a manhater. It’s just that there are certain factors on why I never got into a serious relationship. I don’t know if my so-called strong personality has something to do with it. My friends say that I am being too idealistic with my ideal guy. Some say that I don’t even explore (whatever that means). But do you want to know the real truth?

Ask me personally and I’ll tell it to you.

I don’t really get it: Why do some girls can’t live their life without a boyfriend? For example, she broke up with her on-off boyfriend for two years. After a few weeks, she has a new boyfriend to brag about. This reminds me of Chris Crocker’s “Codependency” video. Search for it to know what I’m talking about.

I really find it overwhelming when some people do approach me telling me that they admire me on how I manage to travel alone. I mean, everyone can travel by themselves as long as they know how to read, they know how to follow directions and if they have money. Some are being too dependent to their sweeties or family members, the reason why they never grow up.

If ever I’ll get a boyfriend, I want someone who knows what he wants. I want someone who is family-oriented. I want someone who has a good sense of humor yet we can talk about serious stuff. I want someone who is sensible. I want someone who is not afraid to face the world. I want someone who is taller than I do (this is the hard part LOL). I want someone who is honest. I want someone who wants to know me better and understand my situation. I want someone who wants me to understand his situation. I want someone who is responsible. I want someone who is.. yeah.. I’m running out of words LOL

I’m not quite sure on why I wrote this entry. I am a bit reluctant in posting stuff related to my views on love but oh well, I already clicked the publish button so there. That’s it. I’m about to sleep now. Good morning.