Why Can’t I?

Sometimes, I feel like I want to be a bad person. You know, like those individuals who don’t really give a damn on what others might feel or think about them. I want to be irresponsible and just have fun all the time. I want to live life to the fullest by kissing any guy I want to be with at that moment. I want to say hurtful words to the people who caused me too much pain. I want to just freely go wherever I want to go. I want to explore the world by myself. I want to accomplish much in life. I want to work in a reputable company and get rich a year after. I want to undergo plastic surgery for me to look more attractive. I want to do films. I want to write more stories. I want to blog about Rubis . I want to wear the most fabulous dresses. I want to do well in every aspect of my life.

But I can’t!

I am not a bad person at heart and I do really care a lot to the people I love most especially my family and friends.

I have to be a responsible individual because I don’t want to feel sorry for myself later on.

I don’t want to kiss just any guy out there because I do treasure a kiss ( and in fact errr.. nevermind).

I don’t want to say hurtful words to other people because I do believe in karma.

I can’t go wherever I want to go for now because I just can’t leave the people I cherish most.

I can’t explore the world for now because I have no money for travel-yet.

I think i still can’t work in an IT-related company because of the distance.

Plastic Surgery is a big no-no for now because in reality, I’m scared to go under the knife.

I can’t do films for now because I don’t have the video cam that I want to use for shooting my first short movie and I’m not in Manila right now.

I can’t write stories because I have to finish some arrggg.. secret.

I can’t wear fabulous dresses for now because there’s no important occassion yet

but I can do well in every aspect of my life.. I want to and I will.